well.....to keep things short i spent last week cleaning a bunch of "junk" out of my room and organizing a lot i tend to be a packk rat. and still adjusting to life at home for the time being. last weekend i was able to go camping with a big church group that i love and cherish and just enjoy time relaxing and enjoying nature away from the hub bub of cell phoones, tv, and craziness. This week i really was able to dig into Isaiah and really glean from God and his anger and love to the nations and to his people. Now i am spending some time with my two brothers (sister in law and niece). Its really hard because i want to stay closely connected with my family and that is hard when they are far away. Last night i was able to see brother kirk (sophomore at bethel) play soccer and take a bunch of balls to the head, cold but a fun time. Have not been able to connect with him much, except through sports or brief conversations that we may have. I have not quite accepted that boys will be boys and are not quite as vocal or talkative as we females. So i pray this time especially with my brothers will just be a time to talk and know their hearts, as i dont get to do that much. I was able to eat breakfast and spend a short time with a Bethel friend and just share life and kind of talk about some funny stuff but also some core stuff. A sweet song that i was listening to in the car was "Fall on Jesus" a good reminder of our daily need for our Savior. This week i have really been reading and rereading the armor of God (Ephesians 6:10-20) and what it means to put that on daily! This morning i was reading Psalms 34 and the first verse has been the meditation of my heart today as i go about my day and have conversation with people., "His praise shall continually be in my mouth". Sorry this is only a weekly thing i dont mean for that to happen, but i have been able to talk to some of you on the phone which has been a blessing. Please pray that i would find contentment for this season in my life and believe GOd has me where he wants me! much love...Brittany Noelle

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sorry to those of you who want to keep tabs on me and i have not been doing a good job at all at keeping you updated. i would say i did not tell the truth in my last entry and telling you whats really going on deep inside. well things have been a little bit crazy. after about a week of sleepless nights and i believe intense spiritual warfare (my roomate said i was asleep one night with an angry look on my face), some depression it just intensified to where i could not sleep, concentrate, i was very emotional and anxious, my eating pattern was off. i really didnt have weapons ready and my prayers to God were few. I wanted to be in control and believe i was until it was too much. the bottom line is the program that i was in it was not safe to be there for me and it was best i come home and take some time to kind of regroup for a bit. i just got really sick and my body physically could not handle even the littlest things. A lot of different things are running through my head right now. God knew this was going to happen and has had his hand in it all. One of my dear friends from the institute was willing to drive me to chicago, where my dad took a train met me and drove me home. To those of you who supported me financially for the institute,i do not have an answer yet but will talk to the financial guy in the morning as to what will happen to your money. I miss my class dearly and long to be back with them. I may go back in january but don't know if that is possible depending where the Lord has me. I would appreciate prayers and am willing to talk to you if you want. So.....i am home in kalamazoo, MI for right now and i pray that i will be content for this season and journey in my life. sorry to if this comes as a shock to most of you, love you all!